So lately I have been walking around feeling like i am in a bubble and I can't get out. This is not the norm for me. I am a fly by night, fly by the seat of my pants, spontaneous kinda girl. i don't give much thought or even a second thought to much of anything not even what i am saying...i think it, it comes out and 1/2 the time i want to shove it back in my mouth. You want to jump out of a plane...okay let's do it...yeah that's me. BUT lately I have been giving things a second thought. I have been thinking about how i really can't name 10 good things or habits about me which is sad. it is sad to me because again i don't pay attention to the small stuff. I never have. I can name 100 things about O'neil or "Elizabeth but not me. That really is a eye opener. Is it that I pay attention to everybody else and not myself? is it that I am scared if I pay attention to myself i might want to change things. Although there is things i do want to change, nothing major just minor changes.
but speaking to my best friend yesterday really makes me realize I have a great life with great friends and i need to accept me for me and not change anything about me. that is what makes us who we are as individuals. And i also need to realize i cannot change oneil as much as i would like to change 2536595 things about him that annoy the shit out of me. With that said i go back 10 years ago when there was nothing i would have wanted to change about him. i think as time goes on we all change in one way or the other sometimes for the good sometimes to annoy the spouse...whatever the case maybe we need to accept it and move on. And from this day forward I am going to just accept that O'neil is anal in everything and that no matter how many times i flip my wig, lose my marbles scream and cuss, raise hell and get my blood pressure up...he is still NOT going to rinse the damn dishes after he eats like i ask. This has been a 10 year battle so I am just letting it go and moving on. I have very few quirks and i mean very few (compared to some people, love ya girl) but the freaking dishes is one of them. That will send me into more of a fit than anything i can think of right now.
I am breaking out my journal and i am going to start journaling my thoughts. i have never done this before so i am starting now. i think sometimes we all need to get in touch with the serious side but for me it is hard. I am a cut up, i am a jokester, pretty laid back until i really get fired up then i am like a cyclone. i think that is the gemini in me....i have split personalities...which is why i made this layout to begin with...lol

Okay enough nonsense...I'll be back finally later with some turkey day pics...I didn't take as many as I wante dtoo and damn it...didn't get one of the whole family either like i wanted.... ;(

















































